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Let me let you in on a secret...I suck at new year's resolutions. I have the follow through of a gnat. As I reflected on why this was, I think it was because my past resolutions have never really meant anything to me. Yeah, it was something to do, and something I wanted, but it never mattered if I followed through or not. Well, that will {hopefully} change this year. It took me a while to come up with my list this year, because I wanted to think about what would really enhance my life, and I think I have narrowed it down to four. Here goes...

Lately, I have made it a priority to get up a little earlier than normal to spend some quiet time drinking coffee, praying, and reading a devotional and/or this week's Sunday school lesson. I have really enjoyed these mornings, and find that not only am I growing in humility, understanding, and awe of the Father, I feel more pleasant and ready for the day. I have been reading the great devotionals from #shereadstruth and am currently in the middle of their fresh start series. There are also some mornings that I work on my scripture journals, which I will share about later.

I think this is something we all get sucked into and could benefit from. Now that my phone has everything on it, I find that my attention will drift to it more that it should. During the commercial of whatever I'm watching, while Adam is changing {e}, while {e} is busy eating....too often. I want to be present in her life, in my life. So, my goal is to put the phone down while {e} is awake. With the exception of phone calls, no screen time when she is around. She is more important than any Facebook status, Pinterest pin, or Instagram comment.

This one seems a little shallow, and self-centered, but hear me out. I have hit that 'new mom' rut. {e} is a year old now, so we've found our groove as a family of 3. But that first year...man. It is all about survival and finding that routine. In those moments, I could care less about whether or not my hair has been in a ponytail for 2 weeks straight (I did manage some washes in there though), my earrings match (or I am even wearing them) or my legs are shaved (sorry honey). Heck, it was a successful day just to get my teeth brushed and everyone out the door on time. But now, we've got this. And I'm ready to start feeling like a mom-person again, not a mom-zombie. It is really important to me that {e} has high self-esteem, and feels good about who she is. Growing up, I never heard from any strong female influence that they liked the way they looked, they were happy with themselves regardless of the number on the scale, and they made it a priority to take care of themselves. I do not want my precious little {e} to have any more self-doubt that necessary. I want her to love every inch, every fiber, every quirk of herself. This has been a process for me, and I don't want it to be a process for her. I want to teach her that it is okay to look nice. It is okay to enjoy painting your nails (or digging in the dirt if that is her thing). It is okay to take 30 minutes getting ready. It is okay to take bubble baths for the sake of taking a bubble bath. It is okay to feel good about yourself. And I know it starts with me. So, I'm working on saying goodbye to the constant ponytail days. Goodbye to the same 5 outfits that were on rotation. I want to work on saying hello to the things I used to do and enjoy before I became a mommy, like looking put together for work. Like finding the perfect accessory. Like trying new hairstyles and embracing it for whatever it was. Like having fun being a girl again.

Now, before you think I'm going to just thumbtack random pictures all over my house, stop. That's not what this is. I have pinned almost 3,000 things (we can talk about a support group later). How many of those pins have come to fruition? Maybe 10. That's ridiculous! There are so many good ideas, fun things to do with {e}, outfits to me tried, life-made-simple tips not to try to make more happen. I'd like to say I will do 2 a month, but let's get real here. I have a one-year-old, remember. So, instead of setting a number to it, I'm just putting it out there that I want to try and make it more real life.

So there. My 4 things. 4 ways that I would like my life to change in 2014. I will do my best to post updates and pictures and ins and outs. But intranets....you've got to keep me accountable.

What are your 2014 goals, resolutions, big ideas???